Here goes a dump of thoughts I've been having lately.
I had a long talk with a close friend from college. An interesting thing we discussed and agreed on was that there seemed to an undercurrent of despair ever since we graduated from highschool.
I don't know if this is a common thing people experience or if it's just a byproduct of growing up and one's understanding of the world improves. We also had common recurring thought which
is that "never to have existed" would have been so great.
I just don't understand why my mind is burdened with these depressing thoughts. Even before social media doomer feeds started affecting me, I remember feeling empty and just plain weird
in the time period before college started and after school had ended and I had nothing to do. This is pretty much I wanna say on this topic
I have decided to start going to the gym starting next month. I don't know why it has taken me so long to decide this but better late than never. I'm sick of this stupid thin build of mine. I wanna feel strong for once. I WILL DO IT.