I fucking hate group projects from the bottom of my heart. I feel like taking a pencil and stabbing my eyes out when I hear people talk in Teams meetings.
These things are so fucking meaningless. Why. Why. Why. Why. Why. Why. Why. Why. Why did I choose this career why why why why did I not go into some fundamental science or mathematics.
Its all fucking propped up with no actual solid foundation. Our economies, our jobs, the demand for things, the supply to match these demands so fucking useless. To what end are we doing all this circus for???
Just like the buddhist principle of dependent origination... its all just circular. Nothing has any fundamental usefulness or a shread of meaning in it. WHy do people stare at the screen for 8 hours a day (including myself) typing in strange invented languages just to resize a button that some dude may like while visiting your vitual webpage designed to sell him some fucking shit he wont ever need.
The absurdity of modern life is soul crushing everyday is a fucking fight against the void. Somehow we appeared outta nowhere and we're just okay with it. ELIFISM, as extreme as it is, has some value to it. Life has suffering encoded into it. Not just humans, even the animal kingdom has huge amounts of suffering. We should strive to delete all forms of life from existence. We developed conscioussness for that very reason. To self annihilate. We are nature's suicide vest and we're doing our job just fine (despite the fact that we dont really want to).